Obviously the easiest time to write a blog post is when you
should be writing something else. However I am excusing this with the hope that
writing this will loosen me up to write my essay on Wuthering Heights. I actually really like Wuthering Heights and the research I got into is very interesting,
it’s just the academic writing part that is a struggle.
It’s all about games for me, it seems. The rules of this
game are that writing a blog post will resolve paper-writing guilt. The rules of
the game I played in McDonald’s earlier were if you look up at the creepy
hobo-chic guy, you lose (Why did he pick the one seat where I could make eye
contact with someone when the whole restaurant was very vacant?). The reason I’m
in the library right now is because I know that there is no way I’d be working
on my paper if I was in my apartment.
I tend to think in “if, then” statements. If I work on my
paper today, then it might take longer overall, but I won’t be scrambling right
before midnight to get to the word count. If I study today when it’s gloomy
outside, then if it’s nice tomorrow I will have won and will finally be able to
celebrate.
The reason I finally started writing this after thinking
about it from that moment with the creep with the painted toenails at McDonald’s
was because the sun just came out. Today, not tomorrow. Instead of spoiling my
work ethic, I think it actually motivated me to work. My film production instructor
this semester said in California they love it when Midwestern folks move in
because they know how to come in to work when the sun is out. I take one step
closer to becoming a responsible adult when I realize that even if the weather
sucks tomorrow, finishing my paper today will be more of a triumph than leaving
to go play Frisbee right now.
The sun’ll come out tomorrow, and the next day, and the one
after that. It just might be behind some clouds at first. Now I’ve got to get
back to writing about why Heathcliff is a vampire.
