Chapter 0: Priorities

I’ve started to become addicted to YouTube instead of anime. I haven’t watched anime since only a few days after spring break. I haven’t been watching YouTube more profusely since then—this is actually fairly recent. And I haven’t been far reaching with my YouTube adventure. I have watched more of some familiar faces, but the biggest change is that I have become engaged in the activities of the Vlogbrothers, John and Hank Green. I am learning how to be entertaining from their vlogs and also from Hank playing video games on a separate channel of his.

The problem is that I’ve somehow lost motivation to watch the anime that is probably simpler to get to than the stuff on YouTube. I wouldn’t have to wait for the video to load or buffer or whatever you want to call it, and it’s got higher quality and lasts longer per episode. I just haven’t been motivated. Part of the neglect is possibly the lack of decent shows this season, but even the one show I couldn’t wait to watch the second episode for (and still haven’t) doesn’t draw me away from the YouTubes or other sites on the interwebs.

I guess I have given myself a lot of new things to do. This blogging thing takes up a lot of time, especially when you throw out your first four drafts. I stopped playing Pokémon religiously recently, and I haven’t played Guild Wars in a long time. I have been practicing with greater frequency, however (though I didn’t today :L ). Maybe my priorities have switched. Maybe it’s because my normally mobile laptop is confined to the back room in the basement. Maybe when summer rolls around I will be back to how I felt at the end of sophomore year.

Yeah, right.

How I’ve digressed from a comparison of YouTube adventures and anime into some other depressing thing is evidence of how draining being a junior can be. I have fond memories of summer last year. I was full of adventure and exploration and love of nature. I went to Europe for 14 days, (oooh, now that is something to blog about later) I expanded my social horizons even more, and summer was good.

This summer I have big plans, too, and I hope that I’ll be able to shake this feeling of anxiety once I’ve left the high school for one last time as a junior. I don’t want to be anxious all summer. That would be ruinous.

So cheer up! We’ve made it somewhere—maybe not somewhere that can be called “this far,” but somewhere. Somewhere is a great place to have an adventure in. Let’s make it through this last leg, and let’s make it an adventure.

Adventure, Dreams, Freedom
Ian